Someone help me

Tears flow from my eyes,

a puddle forms at my feet.

The crystal clear water

reflecting whats dear,

whats wanted from me.

A happy family,

no worries,

no fear.

No trips to the hospital,

no lies of "I'm fine."

No looks of pity

passed down the line.

My tears keep flowing

disrupting the scene.

My hands scrambling

to keep my cheeks clean.

But I can't seem to stop

the sobs from escaping.

I can't seem to stop

the tears from flowing.

I can't seem to help

wanting someone near me.

The sadness won't leave.

As it haunts me like a shadow.

I can't smile anymore.

As nightmares become reality.

The realization dawning

on me.

The sobs become louder.

The tears flow faster.

My hands grow cold,

as my fear rises

and the people whisper once more.

My eyes growing distant,

as I block off all feelings.

I do my duties,

holding back tears,

showing fake smiles.

I am a empty shell,

what will you fill me with?

I am a free puppet,

what will you command me to do?

I am a dead body,

how will you dispose of me?